Matters of the Heart that only He Understands...

So, it has been the longest time. Between now and the last post I have had a lot going on, the best being employed by a wonderful agency with wonderful people where I am learning a lot, and the worst, well... that's the reason why I am here.

The year started on a good note and it continued to look promising, until about 2 weeks ago. Ever been in a position where you are in a hole and you are trying to find ways to get out but nothing seems to be a good enough idea to get you out, well that's me.

The statement: "Once bitten, twice shy," doesn't at all apply to me. I find myself in the situation I was in five years ago. Different script,same cast but twice bitten nonetheless. I keep reasoning with myself, trying to make sense of this whole mess and trying to fill in the gaps and find sensible answers but it just isn't coming together. I am going through something I am sure many people have gone through but today can give a testimony that they made it through just fine. If it doesn't kill you it makes you stronger right?

Yesterday I believed I was okay because the past 3 days I had a smile on my face, but this morning I woke up and I took 2 steps back. I realize now that I cannot do this on my own, I have to go back to that one person who remains in control when I, and even the rest of humankind, have lost control. It's so true when they say problems seem larger without the presence of God. If anyone is feeling down, like they cannot take it anymore, like they do not know where to go, like they are stuck, if anyone is heart broken remember the words written by Gordon Jenkins:

Tears are a Language God Understands...

Often you wonder why tears come into your eyes
And burdens seem to be much more than you can stand
But God is standing near, He sees your falling tears
Tears are a language God understands.

God sees the tears of a brokenhearted soul
He sees your tears and hears them when they fall
God weeps along with man and takes him by the hand
Tears are a language God understands.

When grief has left you low it causes tears to flow
And things have not turned out the way that you had planned
But God won’t forget you His promises are true
Tears are a language God understands.

You are never alone, stick to those who care and love for you genuinely.

Signing out...

M